I know pregancy insomnia can be to blame for a lot of the crazy things that run through a pregnant womans head at night, but last night I just can't get out of my mind.
I learned at a young age from a very wise woman that saying the Rosary typically helps if you can't sleep. On a good note: no better way to fall asleep than saying your prayers. On a bad note: I have a hard time staying awake through a Rosary now.
Last night, after painfully waking myself up by running into the door with my face on the way back to bed from the bathroom, I know I got through at least 2 Rosaries before I got to sleep. I lied in bed near tears at the fear of what I would do if there were a fire. There is nothing in this world that would convince me to leave my husband, my baby, or my dogs in a burning building and I was racing through what I would do on the second story to save them all. I was rigging up not-very-likely-to-work plans involving Baby in a backpack while I try to tie baby blankets together enough to get him out. I was thinking I might be able to get the adrenaline strength to throw my dogs out the window or do the same with them and sheet-hammock. Let me tell you, the number of very-unlikely-to-work things that went through my head was incredible. But, I did decide that I need another fire extinguisher in the house - one upstairs. And that we need fire ladders in each bedroom. These things were non-negotiable.
Now, I've gone shopping for many baby showers with very funny things on the registries... 2 liter of Coke, condoms, CD's, video games (daddy video games, not baby video games). But, my funny weird thing is fire ladders and fire extinguisher! LOL! I'll make sure it's in the house one way or another, but until I get it there it's on the registry. Mostly as a reminder to me... you see, insomnia isn't the only thing pregnancy causes. Forgetfulness runs right up there with it.
Luckily, I did finally get back to sleep. I woke up with only a red mark and some throbbing on my face (from the door). Brian said "people are going to think I'm hitting you!" But I don't think it's noticable. One cheek just has a bit more blush than the other! maybe I need a door stop to keep that darned bathroom door in place!
I'm 21 weeks day 3 now. Baby is kicking me all over the place! I love it! Brian can't feel it yet, but I don't think it will be too long now.
3mo holding hands
Friday, July 22, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
It's official!
"We very much have a boy on our hands!" Or at least that's how the sonographer phrased it. I think we very much have a boy on my bladder! LOL! I was very worried that I hadn't felt him move much yet, so last Friday at our 20 week appointment Dr. Curry told me to go lay in a quiet room after a meal and just wait. Sure enough - I felt a little something. I mean little. It was almost like a little muscle twitch, but in my abdomen. I felt it a bit on Saturday, and then a bit on Sunday, but today at work I realized I'd been feeling that for a while! When I'm sitting it makes me jump up and think I need to pee (again). I thought it was a little muscle spasm on my bladder - when it was really our little man just tapping a little Morse code "hello" to me. On Friday his heartbeat was 140 - well within the healthy range. It's going to be hard to stop calling him "it" now!
The summer is starting to wear on me now... too much time on my feet on concrete and I've got swollen ankles for a few days. They don't hurt, in fact it surprises me when I see they are swollen because I can't feel anything at all. I'm growing ever less tolerant of the heat. Hot days used to be a nuisance but I didn't get too upset over them... last week I had a bonafide anxiety attack because I was certain I was cooking from the inside out! To quote Fools Rush In, "the white people are melting!" and this girl is as pasty, ghostly, white as they come! I'm just glad that I'm only half way through my pregnancy this time of the year. I have friends and family who are 40 weeks (and more) right now and I'm fairly certain I'd have just set up camp in the hospital waiting room if I were them! Those ladies are TROOPERS! Much stronger women than I am!
The weather in KS is miserably hot. I'm told that the summer of 1980 held record setting highs - my mother was pregnant with me then. This year is rivaling those records... and I'm pregnant! There must be something about being named Suni that taunts the sun. Really, Sun, I didn't mean to pose a challenge! I know you are hotter than me!
Now that we have been reassured that our little man is indeed a man we're excited to continue planning everything and to start some shopping! We are looking forward to some weekends with our families coming up and hopefully will get to look at some cute boy stuff with them!
They gave us a video of the ultrasound today, but I can't figure out how to get it to load on Blogger (nor can I figure out what I'm looking at in the video most of the time)! I would put it up if I knew how, but it doesn't seem to be in the right format. Sorry! But, I can post some of the pictures (I recently learned that the process is called an ultrasound, and the images it produces is called a sonogram... I always wondered what the difference was). I have a whole handful of pictures, but I'll be honest - the front facial views are very skeletal (Skeletor is more like it) and creep me out a bit, so I just included my favorite pics.
Today I am 20 weeks and 6 days. I'll be 21 weeks on Wednesday. It's crazy that I'm 1/2 done, but I don't really buy that much, I've only known I was pregnant for 16 weeks, which means I have more to go than I even know I've gone! (or something like that... I'm confused now). Anyway. I'm feeling good lately! Feeling my little man move around is so cool. Makes me grin like a fool every time. LOL! I'm sure I look like a real bright bulb sitting at my desk grinning at nothing all day! Cravings have hit. Still loving my cheeses (which is good. Doc said babies are made of protein, so a protein - meat, dairy, or cheese - at most meals/snacks will keep baby growing and help limit me from growing too much!), my strawberry craving has passed and now I can't get enough of the peaches... millions of peaches for me! MMMMMMmmmmmm! The old cliche of pickles and ice cream is true - although I do not want them together. But oh, they are each on my mind multiple times a day! I let myself have more pickles than ice cream... they have fewer calories. At least ice cream is dairy - I'll give myself a free pass on it (in moderation). Baby can hear me now, so I try to talk softly and sweetly (I don't want to fill his little world with reverberating negativity!) - and whether it's in tune or not I try to sing to him too. Poor little guy. I should probably start reading to him. We can both enjoy that! He's estimated at 10.5" long (from head to toe now) and 10.5 oz. The way I've been feeling like I'm stretching all of the time he'll be a full pound in no time! He (and my uterus) are now heavy enough that when I lean forward I feel like he's going to fall out of my belly button. I can't even imagine what it will feel like in another 19 weeks (and 2 days)!
The summer is starting to wear on me now... too much time on my feet on concrete and I've got swollen ankles for a few days. They don't hurt, in fact it surprises me when I see they are swollen because I can't feel anything at all. I'm growing ever less tolerant of the heat. Hot days used to be a nuisance but I didn't get too upset over them... last week I had a bonafide anxiety attack because I was certain I was cooking from the inside out! To quote Fools Rush In, "the white people are melting!" and this girl is as pasty, ghostly, white as they come! I'm just glad that I'm only half way through my pregnancy this time of the year. I have friends and family who are 40 weeks (and more) right now and I'm fairly certain I'd have just set up camp in the hospital waiting room if I were them! Those ladies are TROOPERS! Much stronger women than I am!
The weather in KS is miserably hot. I'm told that the summer of 1980 held record setting highs - my mother was pregnant with me then. This year is rivaling those records... and I'm pregnant! There must be something about being named Suni that taunts the sun. Really, Sun, I didn't mean to pose a challenge! I know you are hotter than me!
Now that we have been reassured that our little man is indeed a man we're excited to continue planning everything and to start some shopping! We are looking forward to some weekends with our families coming up and hopefully will get to look at some cute boy stuff with them!
They gave us a video of the ultrasound today, but I can't figure out how to get it to load on Blogger (nor can I figure out what I'm looking at in the video most of the time)! I would put it up if I knew how, but it doesn't seem to be in the right format. Sorry! But, I can post some of the pictures (I recently learned that the process is called an ultrasound, and the images it produces is called a sonogram... I always wondered what the difference was). I have a whole handful of pictures, but I'll be honest - the front facial views are very skeletal (Skeletor is more like it) and creep me out a bit, so I just included my favorite pics.
Any arrow you see indicates his manhood... this is the first shot we got, to which the sonographer exclaimed "you very much have a boy!"
I can see what the arrow is pointing at, but I don't know what I'm looking at otherwise to reference that it is his parts.
Is it weird that I'm the first person to post my child's genitalia online? ew.
I can see what the arrow is pointing at, but I don't know what I'm looking at otherwise to reference that it is his parts.
Is it weird that I'm the first person to post my child's genitalia online? ew.
Here is a profile shot.
Toward the bottom of the image you can see the forehead and nose etc.
Looks like a cutie to me!
Toward the bottom of the image you can see the forehead and nose etc.
Looks like a cutie to me!
More manhood... both the bat and the balls. Yeah... I can't see much either.
Here is the head, abdomen and most recognizably, a hand!
Sucking his thumb maybe?
I don't know... the girls at work and I made that up. LOL!
Sucking his thumb maybe?
I don't know... the girls at work and I made that up. LOL!
This is a pretty sweet one in my opinion. It's the profile of his foot.
They had another of the bottom of his foot, but it was very skeletal also, and more boney than cute.
Today I am 20 weeks and 6 days. I'll be 21 weeks on Wednesday. It's crazy that I'm 1/2 done, but I don't really buy that much, I've only known I was pregnant for 16 weeks, which means I have more to go than I even know I've gone! (or something like that... I'm confused now). Anyway. I'm feeling good lately! Feeling my little man move around is so cool. Makes me grin like a fool every time. LOL! I'm sure I look like a real bright bulb sitting at my desk grinning at nothing all day! Cravings have hit. Still loving my cheeses (which is good. Doc said babies are made of protein, so a protein - meat, dairy, or cheese - at most meals/snacks will keep baby growing and help limit me from growing too much!), my strawberry craving has passed and now I can't get enough of the peaches... millions of peaches for me! MMMMMMmmmmmm! The old cliche of pickles and ice cream is true - although I do not want them together. But oh, they are each on my mind multiple times a day! I let myself have more pickles than ice cream... they have fewer calories. At least ice cream is dairy - I'll give myself a free pass on it (in moderation). Baby can hear me now, so I try to talk softly and sweetly (I don't want to fill his little world with reverberating negativity!) - and whether it's in tune or not I try to sing to him too. Poor little guy. I should probably start reading to him. We can both enjoy that! He's estimated at 10.5" long (from head to toe now) and 10.5 oz. The way I've been feeling like I'm stretching all of the time he'll be a full pound in no time! He (and my uterus) are now heavy enough that when I lean forward I feel like he's going to fall out of my belly button. I can't even imagine what it will feel like in another 19 weeks (and 2 days)!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Ultrasound update
I called Dr. Curry's office today to let them know that we were disappointed in our ultrasound and would like it if they would call and talk us through it. I also let them know that I don't mind student observation, but that we'd prefer if Dr. Curry run our appointments from now on.
Emily (Dr. Curry’s triage nurse) pulled the sonogram and said Dr. has not looked at them yet, but that she was looking at them and they looked good. She said the baby was measuring 18wks 1 day - so almost exact (we thought 18 weeks 3 days, so almost perfectly on schedule). Weight estimate (u/s is never exact) is about 8.5 oz. Everything looked good. They saw 2 kidneys a bladder a stomach a 4 chamber heart... everything looked good. She said Doc typically does another ultrasound in the 3rd trimester to evaluate size and position - if we want to wait they can check gender then (she said she could not determine gender from the images they sent her). She said if we want to know the sex for sure before that she highly recommends Johnson County Ultrasound and she can give us a referral if they require that - just to call her. She said “looks good” a lot! LOL!
She was completely understanding with the student observation only – not running the appointment – from now on. She was very helpful. I feel much better.
I just wanted to send an update on what the doctor's office had to say about the ultrasound. I hope you all have a good week!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Well boo...
We had our ultrasound on Friday afternoon. We had it all planned out - I drank all 32 ounces of water an hour before the appointment. I had some caffeine and some chocolate to get the little one moving so we could see all there was to see. I even got out of work early so we were there way before we needed to be.
We checked in and were taken into the ultrasound room about a half hour early. There were two gals - a student and an on-call sonographer. We've had a student for almost all of our doctors appointments so far, so when they asked if it was okay for a student to perform the ultrasound I didn't think twice about letting her. BIG mistake!
We were pretty much dummies in her classroom. The student talked to the licensed sonographer quite a bit - asking questions and such, but she didn't talk to us much. The screen was positioned so that I could hardly see it at all - so only Brian could see what she was looking at. He said he could harldy tell what he was seeing either. Now, we are no experts, but we've had 2 ultrasounds before and been able to tell what we were seeing. This time - no such luck. The student kept asking about level 2 measures and the sonographer kept telling her that wasn't necessary. Finally the student handed the wand over to the licensed sonographer and told her she couldn't find the abdominal view she needed. THe sonographer took one look and said "your bladder is full! Do you need to go to the bathroom!?" THANK YOU! I ran to the bathroom and back (aw sweet relief) and the licensed sonographer when ahead and re-took all of the measures that the student had taken... I was getting suspicious, but was glad they were double checking. Then she finally started showing us stuff. Except, not really. She showed us hands and feet, and told us a couple of times that 18 weeks is a really bad time to try to see the sex of the baby. She took a look and said she thought maybe it was a boy, but the umbilical cord was between baby's legs, too, so she couldn't tell. The student was certain there was no way of telling and putting doubt in everyones mind. The sonographer checked a couple more times and sounded less and less convinced each time, but was still kind of saying boy. By the time we left they were telling us not to start shopping or painting yet. UGH!
Now, I know that they can't always tell whether it's a boy or a girl. I was CERTAIN the entire pregnancy that this was a girl, and now I think she's probably right that it was a boy, but I'll need more conclusive evidence before I start shopping for team blue.
The later and later in the day it got, and the more people I talked to, the more gyped I felt!! Everyone leaves their ultrasound with a "new" due date. Dr. Curry had even told us to expect them to tell us one - and that he was not changing it no matter what they said. They didn't comment on the size, or weight of the baby. They didn't comment on anything about it at all. I started freaking out - were they not telling us something? Or was it just a student so focused on her "lesson" that she didn't think at all about our ultrasound! Was the licensed sonographer in such a rush to get us out of there that she just bypassed all the excited parents stuff and got what she needed and ushered us out? By the time I went to bed that night I was furious. Brian found me in the shower crying the next morning because I was so mad. Not that they couldn't tell us it was definitely a boy, but because they didn't tell us anything! I felt more confused than when we went in!
At our 12 week appt Dr. Curry did an ultrasound to check the heart rate (he couldn't find it on the Doppler). He told us then that it was too early to see the sex of the baby, but that we could see it at 18 weeks. We'd checked out some of the prenatal imaging centers and they all said they could look as early as 18 weeks - so we thought we were good to go... we were 18 weeks! It wasn't until the sonographer, and then a couple of friends of mine said that 20-22 weeks was much better time to see the sex that I even thought that 18 was too early. Had I known that, I may have waited to to the ultrasound at 20-22 weeks (lets be honest - 20... I can't wait any longer than I have to... which is what got me in this predicament in the first place!).
So... I'm still not certain enough to start shopping (dang it). Brian is convinced that it's a boy and it was just that student's lack of training (ie- inability to see it) that put doubt in all of our heads. IDK - all I know is that Dr. Curry will be getting a call from me bright and early tomorrow morning to voice my disappointment and let him know that I'd like to hear from him when he gets a chance to look at the images. Maybe he can tell us something since the tech's didn't!
The sonographer did say that Dr. Curry may order another ultrasound because the baby was curled into a position that made it difficult to get an image of the 4 chambers of the heart. She thought she could see them, but she couldn't catch it for the images. So... we'll see if we get another chance or if we'll be calling Prenatal Imaging for confirmation!
The heart rate was 144 at the time of the ultrasound. They said that just like ours, baby's heart rate will fluctuate with activity. Apparently my caffeine hadn't kicked in yet! Today I'm 18 weeks and 6 days. Baby is about the size of a sweet potato from head to rump (head on my left side, rump on my right). Baby is becoming amazingly mobile passing the hours yawning, hiccupping, rolling, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking, and swallowing. And baby is finally big enough that I'll soon be able to feel movements. Baby can hear now - so I'm trying to talk to it more... and play more music, too! Sometimes we even dance (although that tends to be more spastic than rhythmic! Most of you saw the dancing Suni in the wedding video... not much has changed since I was 8). Big changes and developments are happening in the next couple of weeks.
We checked in and were taken into the ultrasound room about a half hour early. There were two gals - a student and an on-call sonographer. We've had a student for almost all of our doctors appointments so far, so when they asked if it was okay for a student to perform the ultrasound I didn't think twice about letting her. BIG mistake!
We were pretty much dummies in her classroom. The student talked to the licensed sonographer quite a bit - asking questions and such, but she didn't talk to us much. The screen was positioned so that I could hardly see it at all - so only Brian could see what she was looking at. He said he could harldy tell what he was seeing either. Now, we are no experts, but we've had 2 ultrasounds before and been able to tell what we were seeing. This time - no such luck. The student kept asking about level 2 measures and the sonographer kept telling her that wasn't necessary. Finally the student handed the wand over to the licensed sonographer and told her she couldn't find the abdominal view she needed. THe sonographer took one look and said "your bladder is full! Do you need to go to the bathroom!?" THANK YOU! I ran to the bathroom and back (aw sweet relief) and the licensed sonographer when ahead and re-took all of the measures that the student had taken... I was getting suspicious, but was glad they were double checking. Then she finally started showing us stuff. Except, not really. She showed us hands and feet, and told us a couple of times that 18 weeks is a really bad time to try to see the sex of the baby. She took a look and said she thought maybe it was a boy, but the umbilical cord was between baby's legs, too, so she couldn't tell. The student was certain there was no way of telling and putting doubt in everyones mind. The sonographer checked a couple more times and sounded less and less convinced each time, but was still kind of saying boy. By the time we left they were telling us not to start shopping or painting yet. UGH!
Now, I know that they can't always tell whether it's a boy or a girl. I was CERTAIN the entire pregnancy that this was a girl, and now I think she's probably right that it was a boy, but I'll need more conclusive evidence before I start shopping for team blue.
The later and later in the day it got, and the more people I talked to, the more gyped I felt!! Everyone leaves their ultrasound with a "new" due date. Dr. Curry had even told us to expect them to tell us one - and that he was not changing it no matter what they said. They didn't comment on the size, or weight of the baby. They didn't comment on anything about it at all. I started freaking out - were they not telling us something? Or was it just a student so focused on her "lesson" that she didn't think at all about our ultrasound! Was the licensed sonographer in such a rush to get us out of there that she just bypassed all the excited parents stuff and got what she needed and ushered us out? By the time I went to bed that night I was furious. Brian found me in the shower crying the next morning because I was so mad. Not that they couldn't tell us it was definitely a boy, but because they didn't tell us anything! I felt more confused than when we went in!
At our 12 week appt Dr. Curry did an ultrasound to check the heart rate (he couldn't find it on the Doppler). He told us then that it was too early to see the sex of the baby, but that we could see it at 18 weeks. We'd checked out some of the prenatal imaging centers and they all said they could look as early as 18 weeks - so we thought we were good to go... we were 18 weeks! It wasn't until the sonographer, and then a couple of friends of mine said that 20-22 weeks was much better time to see the sex that I even thought that 18 was too early. Had I known that, I may have waited to to the ultrasound at 20-22 weeks (lets be honest - 20... I can't wait any longer than I have to... which is what got me in this predicament in the first place!).
So... I'm still not certain enough to start shopping (dang it). Brian is convinced that it's a boy and it was just that student's lack of training (ie- inability to see it) that put doubt in all of our heads. IDK - all I know is that Dr. Curry will be getting a call from me bright and early tomorrow morning to voice my disappointment and let him know that I'd like to hear from him when he gets a chance to look at the images. Maybe he can tell us something since the tech's didn't!
The sonographer did say that Dr. Curry may order another ultrasound because the baby was curled into a position that made it difficult to get an image of the 4 chambers of the heart. She thought she could see them, but she couldn't catch it for the images. So... we'll see if we get another chance or if we'll be calling Prenatal Imaging for confirmation!
The heart rate was 144 at the time of the ultrasound. They said that just like ours, baby's heart rate will fluctuate with activity. Apparently my caffeine hadn't kicked in yet! Today I'm 18 weeks and 6 days. Baby is about the size of a sweet potato from head to rump (head on my left side, rump on my right). Baby is becoming amazingly mobile passing the hours yawning, hiccupping, rolling, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking, and swallowing. And baby is finally big enough that I'll soon be able to feel movements. Baby can hear now - so I'm trying to talk to it more... and play more music, too! Sometimes we even dance (although that tends to be more spastic than rhythmic! Most of you saw the dancing Suni in the wedding video... not much has changed since I was 8). Big changes and developments are happening in the next couple of weeks.
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